stfu · jensen.

last night was insane. every time i hang out with haley is insane actually. i worked until eleven, and since SOMEONE bailed out on getting me some, i wasn't even going to get to smoke..but then haley called me and told me she was going to be chillin' with jordan (who lives with corey and this guy named r.j., but seems to be nothing like them), and invited me to come. so i did. when i got there he wasn't there, and shaggy called haley. he was coming home from work so we were going to chill with him too i guess. so he got there with corey (who stayed sitting in the car, like a weird ass) and we were just sitting on the porch talking, then we had to go get gas. after that we ended up going to get jordan, just to tell him he had to get out of the car while we went and got the green. that was an adventure, let me tell you. i'm not going to mention anyones real names, but we met this guy....we'll call him...will. he's a big black guy. and to everyone else he probably does look scary as hell. he's super big into snorting powder too. but to us, he was really nice. he liked us he said. he's gotten into some crazy shit though, and is super paranoid. he wouldn't even tell us his last name or anything. it's understandable though. he raps too. he knows some big rappers (i forget which ones though). then after we dropped him back off we went back and got jordan. we smoked and drove around. then went on "a mission" (shaggy was soooo faded) at walmart, at three in the morning. let's just say people were staring a little. we were probably a sight to see. i can just imagine it: 4 kids, high as hell, walking around walmart, not even getting anything, not even really looking at anything. just walking and then walking out. then we sat in the walmart parking lot for literally like, an hour. just sitting there. then we left and went back to pookies. shaggy just went home becuase he was super tired. and jordan, haley, and i sat in haley's car. smoked some more and drove back roads from hermitage to lebanon then alllll the way back. it seemed like the longest ride ever. jordan has to be one of the most interesting people i've ever met. i'm really really attracted to him. it sucks because he's into haley. but it's whatever.  anyways, i guess i could mention some stuff about him so i'll remember what he's like.. he went to mcgavock and used to live in mt. juliet, used to work at target, lived in other states. he used to do meth, but isn't anymore, thank god. he's done a lottt of stuff. i don't feel like talking about him anymore. after we dropped him off at his house we went back to pookies and passed out. then i woke up and came home. today i work and then afterwards i'm going to mark's to smoke and get in his hot tub! i love hot tubs.

it's weird how guys try to talk to a girl. something about the way they do it makes me laugh.

"The advantage of a bad memory is that one can enjoy the same good things for the first time several times."

"I wanted to tell him that I will never be sorry for loving him. That in a way I still do- that maybe I always will. I’ll never regret one single thing we did together because what we had was very special. Maybe if we were ten years older it would have worked out differently. Maybe." -Forever by Judy Blume